My Passion for Stuff

So, It has been a while blog world. I didn't forget about you. I have just lowered you on my list of priorities! (Can you feel the love?). I have had a good couple of weeks here to begin Sept. As I mentioned in my last post, most of my computer waking moments have been taken up by this computer game, Maple Story.
As I have analyzed my video game history it seems that I ultimately want to play video games for what I call "Barbie Dress Up." I remember talking with Robin about a year ago about why I liked to play Tiger Woods so much and I got honest and said, "I like to unlock and purchase all of the cool clothes in the game!" Since then I have been looking at why and how I play video games as a case study about my personality.
What I have discovered about my joy and passion for video games is that I like stuff (work with me...i think this might go somewhere). See, I have been noticing that it isn't just sitting in front of a TV and playing Madden or NCAA or Tiger Woods that I enjoy as much as it is "getting stuff" in the game. Whether it be unlocking a Jersey or a special golf club, or a +3 Ice Sword. It has been interesting to being to uncover my drive to play video games. As I have been looking and working through this (for a number of months) I can see it surfacing throughout my life. I have this weird habit of stacking up my DVDs and games so that I can see them and look at "all that I have acquired." On some levels it feels very Barbaric and on another level I feel a little OCD. I am not complaining and have no plans to change my current "fix" for my "problem," but I do find it interesting to be able to name it. I mean, I feel like I have a lot of things driving me sub-consciously and to be able to find one of them is quite nice (I guess).
I guess my ultimate hope is that by recognizing it, then I can be aware and be able to differentiate between wants and needs. I want to acquire a lot of things (my most recent is football jerseys...weird, i know) but I need very different things (like to begin to get out of debt and learning to live on a budget). I know you might be thinking, "Kirk is nuts!" But my therapist doesn't think I am.
I don't know. Just thought it was something someone might want to read. Maybe you are a guy who is struggling trying to explain to their wife/girlfriend about what you like to play video games. Maybe you need some accountability with your "stuff." In fact. If we could. Just close your eyes...well, open them back up cause you can't read with your eyes closed. But slowly bow your head. Now with every eye clos...well, with your "mind's eye" closed and every head bowed, I want you to ask yourself this question...If you were to die tonight, do you know where all of your video game stuff would go? Because if you haven't taught about it, you should. You don't want your wife/girlfriend to just throw your Xbox (or God forbid you still own a PS2) out with the garbage like she will the rest of your junk (or memories as the ladies call them). I am just saying. You need to know where you internal hard drive is going to go, when your gone.
Ok, that is it. Had to end on a light note. Work for Kirk is going well, I am in a little bit of a restful swing. Work for Robin is going well in one (Preschool) and aaeeennn in the other (Vet). I am undefeated in both of my Fantasy Football leagues (1-0 in each) and looking for another big week (Thanks Chester Taylor!). Nappy is doing well, although tonight he is battling an upset stomach, that is in fact why I am updating my blog at 5:30 am. Oh, as a special treat for reading so far...you can download the latest (and only) teaching from Kirk here. Duct Tape Theology...it is pretty hot.

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But seriously...if you were to die tonight...